I don't know where I'm going, but I hope I go far.

ehh.
ugh, skins obsession<3 almost finished the fourth season):

created by; she spoke words of wisdom.
early july, 2011.
loosely based on; The It Girl by Cecily von Ziegesar
 
http://www.polyvore.com/nocturnal_reckless_roleplay/group.show?id=125654
http://www.polyvore.com/nocturnal_reckless_roleplay/group.show?id=125654
http://www.polyvore.com/nocturnal_reckless_roleplay/group.show?id=125654

{please excuse the appearance of the set! it's my first real set in so long}
 
☀Topaz Lexington, 17
-model: Jourdan Dunn or Chanel Iman or Arlenis Sosa
-bio: Topaz Lexington, this girl was raised in Ethiopia until she moved to Australia with her family. Her family has always been loving to Topaz, giving her everything she ever wanted and tending to her every need. Her parents have always been proud of her, their little artist. From as early as she could hold a paintbrush, Topaz has been painting. She paints portraits, landscapes, sceneries, everything. This is the life that Topaz's parents knew about her. What they didn't know is that she was living a double life. When she wasn't in her room, painting on her easel, she was actually in the bathroom, purging and regurgitating everything she'd eaten that day. It's not that Topaz didn't like her body, or that she felt overweight. It was because of her boyfriend that she met in Australia. He was extremely rude and abusive, telling her she was too fat. Topaz believed him and did whatever she could to make him happy but it wasn't worth it--he broke up with her soon after. Topaz let go of him, but she didn't leave her bulimia behind. Topaz couldn't get over the break up and started taking her anger and sadness out in her paintings. She starting ripping apart her masterpieces and breaking things left and right. She turned into a wrathful person and it showed her in artwork. Her parents became worried and sent her to Thorne Academy. But they sent her for her destructive behavior and arrogance, still oblivious to the fact that their daughter was bulimic. Here at Thorne, Topaz has an "I-don't-care" attitude when actually she really does. She's going through a lot with her broken heart and doesn't know how to deal. Maybe coming here will take her mind off things? Or is it too late and has Topaz destroyed herself? Is she beyond improvement?
-likes: quiet & peaceful public places, easel, buying new paints, baggy clothes, neutral colors, earthy colors, being alone, forgetting the past, losing weight.
 

Top four:
1. Topaz Lexington
2. Samantha Perez
3. Felicity Lirka
4. Whoever...
 
The typical complaints hung in the air, dirt being kicked up in the air as if their problems would float away as the cloud of dust did. My hand was wrapped around the opposite wrist as though it usually was, measuring the size of my distinct bones. Of course my hungry – no, pathetic - eyes flicked over the food in front of me. “I could eat one, only 100 calories. Or half, only 50 of course. Or I could just eat it all, feel the disgusting, repulsive food sliding down my throat & feel the burn of it coming up later tonight,” the voice of Ana said to me. The other girls, they shoved the food down their throats so easily. They didn’t think about the repercussion when they looked in the mirror after the meal.
 
It’s not worth it, not like anyone even knows yet. I pushed the plate forward out of my immediate reach & stared out the window. I thought of painting the view, the pace of my brush changing with the intensities of the colors. Too exhausting, too upsetting: at least that’s what every thought that passed my mind felt to be. Thoughts of the past had infected my sleep the past few nights & my body was feeling the consequences.
 
“Topaz?” A prodding finger woke me from my first few seconds of sleep this week. My hazel eyes opened to find Samantha blinking at me worriedly. “I’m fine, just tired.” She nodded & returned to eating her food. She might have been the only one here who I felt connected to & actually felt for. The others repeatedly complained about what they were forced to do. If only they knew what bad was. They’ve never had to fear going to the one they were supposed to love.
 
Storyline:
I think I'm going to have Topaz overcome her eating disorder & face what she's dealing with. I don't know if it's going to be another person that causes the change or just her seeing the real bad things in life.
 
Yes! I am really excited to play Topaz(: The story line of the roleplay is really original & I'm sure it's going to be fun.

♥ Madelena Nova (19)
From- Sicily, Italy and Moscow, Russia
Likes- Royalty, Couture, Boys, Ballet.
Dislikes- Marriage, Royalty, Claustrophobia
Chosen Subject area- Dance
Status- Project
Madelena comes from Royalty. Yes, you heard it. HCA includes royalty and with that comes great responsibility and the princess has bodyguards constantly surrounding her. She is constantly protected and has virtually no life-when she goes out, everything has to be preplanned and appointed. There is no spontaneity. On top of the claustrophobic feel of the bodyguards always surrounding her, she is engaged to marry as soon as she finishes her studies. Her parents have organised a marriage to the son of a Russian oil tycoon . The oppressive feel of the over protectiveness leaves her feeling depressed and tired and the only thing that makes her happy again is ballet. She absolutely adores ballet and has even danced the lead in Tchaikovsky's "Nutcracker" in Moscow. She is immensely talented and works extremely hard because the ballet requires so much dedication. This princess thought that London would be her ticket to Freedom but it turns out to be the complete opposite. How will the princess deal with the pressure?
Model- Anna Selezneva
 
STORY:
The Givenchy tote slung over my shoulder, containing my most prized possessions-my Gaynor Minden pointe shoes- felt heavy as I searched around me. I longed to be in the dance studio as I let go of the stress of the week. Just to be clear from anyone’s sight & to feel pure freedom for just a second is was all I needed.
 
“Madelena…” All muscles tightened as the voice I knew too unpleasantly well called for me. “Yes?” His hands clasped around my petite shoulders. “You know you’re not supposed to be out.” “But I told you, Madame Perille wanted me to stop by the studio to go over the routine she taught us today. You should have been told what times I would be leaving but you weren’t there when I was ready to leave.” I shrugged it off as if it was all his doing.
 
“Back to your room, now.” What the f’uck am I? A pathetic five year old? A person born into royalty should be allocated to do what they want. Since the second I stepped into Hall’s College of the Art’s I’ve been kept under close eye & the pressure of ballet & my parents approval is taking me to a breaking point.

ergh, this is bad...but i don't care. i'm in pure bliss right now.
 
i'm sitting outside, it's almost 8:30, the moon is shining, & i'm no where near cold. god i want summer. <3 but this is sure as h'ell close enough.
 
anyways, i hope you're all doing well! you can tell i've gotten worse at making sets! but bye! xo.

ohhey. this is horrible.
so it's been a while. sh!t never changes though. still dying daily because of the same guy as before. then again, i did manage to get my grades up in just a few weeks.
 
erggh life is depressing.

i don't care how crappy this set is, it's been sitting in my drafts for forever. x_x
 
an hour & 45 minutes of 2010 left, thank god. this year has been complete shit, honestly. i'm gonna try as hard as possible to make this year amazing...try harder in school, party more with friends, & attempt to be more careful about who i fall for.
 
so i love you all, have an amazing year! <3

so sorry for if what i'm about to say offends anyone, but this is a place to express myself, is it now?
 
so for the past two days i've been seeing simple text sets that say 'can this set get 20 faves by ____'. fsgjsfdkgg...what? okay so people can go ahead & fave whatever the heck they want but still. people work really hard for faves & get barely any then people put text on a set get a bunch?
 
just my oppinion.
but now it's time to go eat & watch movies with my family. oh & text the senior i have no chance with. bye bye!